For Criy, While You’re Away Written by Rain
For Criy, I don’t always know what to say or what to do to fully express my feelings and thoughts. So, I placed them into a bunch of poems. These poems are a tiny bit of my thoughts, promise, memories, and moments that reminded me of you. I hope these poems bring you warmth, comfort, and happiness.
CONTENTS A Person Who I Met Online Who Knows Kabisado The Most Beautiful Thing Tahanan Nothing Criy
Out of all the places in the world, I found you on Reddit. A voice actress among other VAs. Just another audio that I listened to to get through the night. But somehow, I followed my heart and mind when they told me to message you. It took days when I sent that DM. I’m nervous thinking you won’t notice it. And then, one day, you replied to my DM. You asked me about Discord, and it just happened. It all started when you said, “Hi, Ulan," which is a name not many people used to call me. We started messaging at a random time; the notifications from you made me happy. Something that I look forward to after a long day. You were no longer just another VA. From then on, I knew I wanted to be close friends with you. You became one of the few people I felt comfortable sharing my thoughts with. I just realised that I’m lucky to have met someone like you. I’m thankful I followed my instincts to message you that night. In the world of places where people just casually leave, you stayed. I’m grateful. Grateful that I stumbled upon one of your audios. Grateful that I sent that message. Grateful that you replied. Grateful that I got the chance to know you. You said, “The rain never excuses itself; it just pours," and I just realised. Rain never has to apologize for pouring. Because somewhere along the way, the rain founded Criy.A person who I met online.
Who Knows I’ll probably be too clingy and talkative, but who knows? Maybe even too much sometimes but who knows? Lately, I’ve been thinking of you girl and I found peace in that. I’ve been thinking how are you and what are you doing just like that. Looking at the stars seeing how they shine so brightly like your eyes. Looking at the sunny sky shows how it resembles you when you smile. Looking at the raindrops shows how it resembles your happy tears. Looking at our conversation like it resembles our memories.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about what would happened: What if I didn’t send that random message? Who knows? What if I didn’t listen to my mind and heart to send that message? Who knows? What if you didn’t reply to my message thinking it’s so random? Who knows? What if you choose to ignore my message? Who knows? In the end, I’m thankful. Because at the end of the day, We choose to follow our mind and hearts, That led us to this present, I wonder what will happen in the future. We never know who knows, even us we don’t know what’s in our future. But it’s okay as long as we’re together.
Kabisado Isang babaeng chinita sa bayan ng pampanga. Isang sulyap mo lang sa kanya ay lubos kang mapapahanga. Isang kita mo palang sa kanya alam mong siya ay kahanga-hanga. Isang oras palang na kasama mo siya ay katumbas na ng pahinga. Halong musika ang iyong gustong pakinggan. Gusto niyang adobo o jollibee ang nasa kanyang pinggan. Kuntento na sa fishball at buko na mabibili sa daanan. Pag akto at pagkanta ang kanyang gustong gawin. Tatlong buwan pa lamang ang nakakalipas pero alam kong parang kabisado na kita. Alam kong mas pipiliin mong kumain at lumabas para ipakita kung gaano ka kaganda Alam kong gusto mo ang kulay rosas at di makakaila na ito ay mapula at maganda. Alam kong gusto mo ng malamig na royal at coke kapag ikaw ay nauuhaw na. Alam kong marami pa tayong mapapagdaanang dalawa. Alam kong minsan nasa taas at minsan nasa ibaba tayong dalawa. Alam kong kakayanin itong malagpasan dahil salo natin ang isa’t isa. Sana alam mo din may isang “Ulan” na handang saluhin at samahan ka.
The Most Beautiful Thing It can be the sunshine when it rises in the morning. It can be the moonlight that shines at night. It can be a candlelight dinner in the evening. It can be a warm chocolate milk you crave at midnight. But it could also be one thing. It can be a person who unexpectedly becomes a part of your day. A person who has mesmerizing eyes that could light up the town. A person who can listen and stay with you until dawn. A person who knows your flaws and still stays. In this world that is full of chaos, that person serves as your solace. In this place that is cruel, that person gives you peace. In this place that can make you restless, that person gives you rest. In this world that is full of doubts, this person can make you feel certain. I once believed that beauty is only for your eyes. I believed that beauty was all fantasies and greatness. As time flies, as I grow old I realize a lot of things. Life shows me that it's not only about things.
Because sometimes they say it’s not always about, Your favorite place, Your favorite song, Your favorite mug, Your favorite thing, Sometimes, It can be the first message that you are scared to send for no reason. It can be the first conversation that you have with that person. It can be the first reply that you didn’t expect to receive. It can be the first person that stays without expecting anything. Maybe they were right. The most beautiful thing is not only for your eyes. It was meant for your heart and mind. It was meant to stay with you. At the end of the day, The most beautiful thing is not just golden fry The most beautiful thing is not just something to make your tears dry. The most beautiful thing is not just a blue sky. But it can also be you, Criy.
Tahanan Sa araw-araw na lumilipas sa pag-ikot ng mundo. Ikaw ang nagsisilbing katahimikan sa mundong magulo. Ikaw ang nagsisilbing pahinga sa nakakapagod na mundo. Sa araw-araw isa ka sa mga taong aking inaabangan na makasama. Tila ang orasan ay nakahinto kapag ikaw ang aking kasama. Tila ang mga bituin ay kumikinang kapag ikaw ay ngumingiti. Hindi ko alam kung bakit kapag ikaw ay nariyan ay ang puso ko ay kumakalma. Kapag kasama ka problema at pagod ay nawawala. Ikaw ang nagsisilbing pahinga kapag inaaway ako ng mundo. Ikaw ang nagsisilbing kakampi kapag tinalikuran na ako ng mga tao. Ikaw ang nagsisilbing tahanan ko kapag tinuturing nila akong estranghero. Ikaw ang nagsisilbing mainit na tsokolate kapag ang buhay ko ay masyadong magulo. Ang tahanan ay hindi lamang nabubuo sa dingding at bubong. Dahil minsan, nabubuo din ito sa isang taong bigla mo na lang nakilala. Kung para sa iba ikaw ay isang actress, artist, at talentadong tao. Pero para sakin, isa ka sa mga taong itinuturing ko na tahanan.
Nothing Oversized shirts and chocolate milk shared between two people. Doing nothing, staring at the ceiling like it might crumble into dust. Munching on chocolate chip cookies with a hint of maple. It doesn’t matter if we’re doing nothing, as long as we’re together. Staying on the call rambling about anything until we are alright. Sharing stories and sweet nothings without caring about time passing. We’ll sing together without thinking about what others might say. We’ll talk about the different things or nothing at all without realizing how much time has passed. We could dance in the dark while it’s raining as if our world stopped. We could watch a movie and act like we will not end up napping. We could stay beside each other without feeling that we need to fill the silence. We could play games, and If I let you win it would still feel like my victory too. In this world, people have different ways to show their love and kindness. In this world, I choose to stay with you on different kinds of days. In this world where nothing is often called a waste of time. I choose to disagree, because even doing nothing with you is still worth it.
Criy I remember scrolling through my Reddit page looking for audios. When I saw a username: Technical_Criy, thinking it would be another VA . Another voice that I would listen to get through those sleepless nights. Another audio to accompany and comfort me all through the night. But somehow I felt that you were different. Something told me that I should send that message. I’m glad I did because if I didn’t, I wonder what would happen. I’m glad I followed my instincts that night because if I didn’t..
I might have missed the chance to meet someone like you. I might have missed the chance to see how precious you are. I might have missed the chance to create and share memories with you. I might have missed the chance to see your beauty inside and out that makes you, you. So just in case you forget how precious you are, I hope you remember these poems, Somewhere in this universe, Someone is beyond grateful that a simple random message turned into a special connection like this. Because before you were just another VA, Another audio, Another Reddit username, Another online friend, But now, You are one of the people I am thankful to have met, You are one of the people I can create and share memories with, You are one of the people who made my days brighter and lighter, You are one of the people I am lucky to have in my universe, Criy.