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Read Me When Your Heart Needs Mine Love, Cy
Legendary Lovers
Table of Contents When you have received this.......................................................................... 1 When you are happy......................................................................................... 2 When you are sad.............................................................................................. 3 When you are upset.......................................................................................... 4 When you are scared........................................................................................ 5 When you are tired............................................................................................ 6 When you are having a bad day................................................................... 7 When you feel lonely........................................................................................ 8 When you miss me........................................................................................... 9 When you need a hug.................................................................................... 10 When you are overthinking.......................................................................... 11 When you feel like giving up.......................................................................... 12 When you are about to do something amazing.................................... 13 When you are stressed................................................................................... 14 When you want to smile................................................................................ 15 When you are doubting yourself................................................................ 16 When you need reassurance....................................................................... 17 When you feel like crying.............................................................................. 18 When you feel lost.......................................................................................... 19 When you need something to hype you up.......................................... 20 When you are celebrating............................................................................ 21 When you think of me................................................................................... 22 When you want to remember our first conversation........................ 23 When you want to remember our high school days......................... 24 When you want to know my favorite memory of us.......................... 25 When you miss our conversations.......................................................... 26 When you think I am mad at you............................................................. 27 When we are not okay................................................................................. 28 When you need a reminder of how special you are.......................... 30 When it is your birthday.............................................................................. 31 When it is the 23rd of the month............................................................. 32 When you want to know why I love you.................................................. 33 Read Me When you want to listen to music............................................................ 29
Hi, Ella! I hope you are having a good day! This book is full of my random messages for you whenever you like, want, or think of something. I want you to feel my presence in every way possible, for I know that I will not always be with you physically. Through this simple book, I want you to always be reminded that you have someone who deeply cares about you, your thoughts, and everything you do in life. This is my way of being present emotionally and spiritually whenever your heart needs mine. Author’s Note: This book is a piece of my heart. Within these pages are my personal thoughts, opinions, ideas, knowledge, and emotions—things I have carried, experienced, learned, and felt along the way. Every word comes from a place of sincerity and reflection. I hope this book reminds you that life is still beautiful, even when it feels heavy. I hope you find comfort in these pages when you are struggling, hope when you feel lost, and a reason to keep going when things become difficult. When You Have Received This 1 Love, Cy
Hello, love love koo! Why are you so happy? Can you make a kwento, please? I am so happy as well that you are enjoying your life and that you get to experience different adventures that could make your heart smile. I would love to hear all your stories and chikas, and I wouldn’t get tired of it. So, if you have time, just send me a message, a voice message, or call me. If we are lucky enough to have our schedules aligned, let’s chika in person, yayyy. You are so lucky to be surrounded by people who make you genuinely happy, and I know that they are also lucky to be with you because you are a ball of pretty sunshine. I hope you will be with sincere people for the rest of your life because smiling looks good on you. You look so pretty, especially when you smile, so keep that on your face always, baby! When You Are Happy Love, Cy 2
When You Are Sad Why sad ang baby ko na yan? Did something happen? Kawawa naman ang lovey ko :(( I wish I could hug you right now, baby. But for now, virtual hug muna, and I promise to hug you when I see you. I am always here for you, even in the hardest times, okay? I love you. It’s okay to cry and be vulnerable. It’s okay not to be okay. It’s okay to feel sad, and it won’t make you any less. Your feelings are always valid. You are heard. You are loved. It may not feel well right now, but I know that you can overcome those things. I know how strong you are, and I admire you for being that person. However, you cannot always be strong in front of everyone; you have me. You can cry in front of me; you can do anything, and I promise to hold your hand the whole time. Do not be afraid to express your thoughts and emotions because it will always be safe with me. Always remember that a part of me cries with you, through ups and downs, mahal kita. Love, Cy 3
What made you upset, baby? Sumbong mo sa akin, and susuntukin natin yan! Bakit naman iniinis ang baby ko, ha? Inhale and exhale na, baby ko. Kalmaaaa! Kikiss kita nang madaming-madami. I hope it’s not that bad. Bawal sa baby sa tiyan mo ang mainis. Haluh! Kidding aside, take a deep breath and calm down. I know it is not easy, but you can do it, lovey. Whatever made you upset, sana maging okay na. It is normal to feel that way, especially if it is really too much, but do not let it get into your head, okay? It will pass, baby. As I always say, I am here. I am willing to listen to your rants about whoever or whatever that is. I am your kakampi, and if anyone made you upset, then I am upset with that person too. I am not just a listener; you can always count on me to fight for you, baby. So, kalma na, and we will talk it out. We are in this together! Look at the sky and get some fresh air, like how we always want it to be. When You Are Upset Love, Cy 4
When You Are Scared Love, Cy 5 I understand that it is hard to face our fears. It is not easy to do something that we have always been scared of. We are just humans who have feelings and personal perceptions in life. Baby, I won’t force you to do it, even if you are scared, but I promise to be with you because I won’t let you face it alone. I promise to hold your hand when it is trembling. When both of us are scared, I will stand strong so you can lower your guard. It is okay to be scared at first. It is okay to not know what to do. However, always remember that good things happen when we step out of our comfort zones. We choose to face our fears and embrace them rather than run away from them. We won’t let those things hold us back, so go out and slay them! There is always a first time. We are not born with experience, but we are born to experience. You may be scared today, but the time will come when you are ready to conquer every stage, every moment, and when that time comes, I will be here cheering and showing how proud I am of you!
When You Are Tired 6 When you feel tired, take a rest. Do not limit yourself from taking a break and getting some calm, fresh air. Give yourself some time to breathe because overworking yourself could only lead you to a much harder situation. I understand that you have a lot of things to do, but depriving yourself of proper rest is not healthy. So, when you get tired, go to sleep; take some time with your friends and family; do your hobbies; watch some good movies; go to your favorite places; and eat your favorite comfort food (sopas)! Do not feel guilty about taking a break. It is the most important part of the process. Success is not measured by how drained you are. Thus, be gentle and choose to live your life lightly. On top of that, when you feel tired, have some baby time! I will take care of you, baby! Pahinga ka sa akin. Love, Cy
If you are having a bad day, Daff and I are always here for you, mowm! We are here to cheer you up and to give you love! We may not be physically there to cuddle with you, but we are always in your heart, and you are always in ours. We are your family! I hope we can make you smile and laugh your heart out, mowm! We will bring more and more cuteness in your life para hindi na ikaw bad mood. We will kiss your whole face, nonstop! We will give you big and warm hugs, so cheer up na, mowm namin! If sleep na si Daff, I will cook your cravings, massage your body, listen to your chikas, and watch random videos with you. I will be your clown to make you laugh. I will be your human panyo if you feel like crying. I will be your human teddy bear if you just want to have some huggies and peace. I will do everything to lessen the heaviness that you are feeling. I am your partner through and through. When You Are Having a Bad Day 7 Love, Cy
When You Feel Lonely 8 You are not alone. You have your family, friends, and me. You have us on your side, and we wouldn’t let you live alone. We are with you to live our lives to the fullest, to go to our sponty galas, to try new things, and to connect with more people. If ever you feel lonely, look back on our memories. Look back on every adventure where you felt happy and contented, and remember the feeling. Watch old videos and look at some photos to help you feel our love for you. They may be memories now, but I know that they will always have a special place in your heart. It may be hard to schedule our galas right now, but we are also looking forward to spending more time with you. We enjoy your presence as much as you enjoy ours. We miss you too, baby! Love, Cy
I know that it is hard for us to live far away from each other, where we cannot see one another whenever we want to, and where we always have to wait for weeks to finally have time for ourselves in person, but I hope that it will not be our situation for the rest of our lives. I miss you every day, baby. I crave your touch, smell, voice, and everything in you. I want to see your smile, and I want to hear your laugh whenever I am not in a good mood because you are my peace, my healing. Your presence brought so much joy and life to my days. You are my safe space. So, whenever you miss me, relive our random galas, favorite chikahan moments, kulitan, asaran, lambingan, cuddling, random kisses, and everything we have spent our time together so far in this lifetime. I hope to be with you much longer and do more things with you. I look forward to more of us in the future, and I hope that there, we are living our fantasies. We are living the life we once dreamed of. I miss you big time, lovey! When You Miss Me 9 I think you will frequently open this page because you miss me a lot. Love, Cy
When You Need a Hug 10 Love, Cy There are times that I won’t be there to hug you, not because I do not want to, but because I am not physically with you. It makes me really, really sad that we are in this kind of situation because I love hugging you as much as I love your hugs, so, so much. I want you to feel my warm, soft presence whenever you want a hug. Baby, I may not be present all the time, but always know that my arms are always ready to hold you. My arms are always open to welcome you anytime, anywhere. Sa bawat panahon na hinahanap-hanap mo ang yakap ko, lagi mo lamang pakatatandaan na gustong-gusto ko ring iparamdam sa’yo ang mga bisig ko. Kailanman ay hinding-hindi ko ipagkakaila sa’yo ang lugar kung saan ka nararapat; iyon ay sa mga yakap ko. Hindi ko man ito maibigay sa’yo ngayon, ngunit sisiguraduhin ko na sa bawat pagkakataon na kaya ko ay buong puso ko itong ipagkakaloob sa’yo, mahal ko. Wala nang mas ikakalma pa ang puso ko kundi tuwing malapit ka rito at nakakulong sa mga bisig ko. Mahal kita palagi!
When You Are Overthinking 11 Love, Cy It is inevitable to overthink. We have thoughts, opinions, and feelings. I understand that sometimes we tend to overcomplicate things because of this. I understand that some problems won’t be easy to resolve, and I am ready for that. These thoughts in our heads are dangerous and powerful. Sometimes they are destructive. Honestly, I know I am not always capable of understanding, but I can offer my patience. Whenever you overthink, I will overexplain. There is no such thing as too much or paulit-ulit when it comes to making you feel understood. Lovey, I may not be good with words sometimes, but I will do my very best to make you feel seen and heard. You can always run to me and communicate your thoughts. I am willing to hear and explain everything to you. I will be patient and be much more understanding when things are hard. Please do not be afraid to open up, be heard, and be seen. It is my responsibility as your partner to be with you even in times of chaos, especially in your chaos. I hope my love will be louder than any noise in your head.
When You Feel Like Giving Up 12 Tingin nga ako sa biceps ng baby ko na yan. Sayang ang biceps kung mag- gigive up na lang? Kaya mo. Kakayanin mo. Naniniwala ako sa’yo. Palagi. There are times na dahil sa pagod, you might feel like giving up. Pero would it be worth it? You are already here. Malayo na ang narating mo; ngayon ka pa ba susuko? My baby is a fighter. Alam kong kayang-kaya mo yan! Hindi kita masisisi kung maisip mo man na hayaan na lang ang mga bagay- bagay dahil alam ko ang hirap na pinagdadaanan mo. However, paano ang mga pangarap mo? Ang mga fantasies natin? Sige ka, hindi tayo makakarating sa New York niyan. Alam ko rin na kakayanin mo because you are a dreamer. You have a lot of dreams for yourself and your family. Una pa lang, nakilala na kita bilang ganoong klase ng tao, kaya alam kong hindi ka basta-basta susuko; kailangan mo lang ng kaunting pahinga, tapos laban na ulit! Hindi naman need na palaging strong, minsan nararapat lang din na ipakita natin ang weak side natin to feel alive. At habang inaabot mo ang mga pangarap mo, nandito lang ako every time na need mo ng break from everything, sasamahan kita palagi. Love, Cy
Ngayon pa lang, proud na ako sa’yo. I am so proud of everything that you do. I am so proud that you can do these things. I am so proud that you are here. Palagi akong naniniwala at palagi akong proud. Not everyone can do these amazing things, and knowing that you can gives me a feeling that I cannot explain. Basta proud na proud ako. I will always cheer for you, shout your name, and clap my hands because I am your number one ultimate super duper supporter. Whether you succeed or not, nandito pa rin ako. As long as you did your best and you are happy and contented, all is well. Palaging mag-iingat sa mga bagay-bagay, ha. We will celebrate your every achievement, every milestone, and every step toward a better life. Mahal kita! Kiss ka sa akin! When You Are About to Do Something Amazing 13 Love, Cy
When You Are Stressed 14 Love, Cy One Iced Spanish Latte for you po. Hi, baby! If you feel stressed and tired from everything you have been going through, please take a break. Have some coffee and baby time. I know I may not help much, but I promise to help you lift the things you are carrying. You do not have to face them alone, baby. You have me. I am willing to lend my shoulder and ears to you. Come to me whenever you feel suffocated by reality. Come to me whenever you feel pressured. Come to me whenever you do not know what to do first. I may not be the solution, but I promise to be your safe space where you can feel whatever you want to feel. I love you! Kiss kita nang madami. Proud ako sa’yo palagi, love ko! Tara na lang gumalaaaa!
When You Want to Smile 15 Here are some pictures of me and Daff that you could look at to brighten up your day. We’re so cute, no? We love you, and we miss you, mowm! Cuddle sooonnnn! Love, Cy
When You Are Doubting Yourself 16 I am your number one fan! Lagi’t lagi akong maniniwala sa’yo. Sa lahat ng pagkakataon at sa lahat ng panahon. I have always been your number one supporter. I believed in your skills, abilities, and mind—I believed in you. Buong puso at isip na maniniwala at magtitiwala ako sa kakayahan mo. Kahit kailan ay hindi ako magdududa sa mga bagay na gagawin mo dahil alam kong kaya at kakayanin mo. You are strong. You are brave. You are powerful. You are more than you think you are. In every way possible, you stood out. You excel, and that’s because it is you. It is okay to feel scared and anxious. It is okay to not be ready. However, do not let those thoughts define you. You are the best in your own way, baby! You are meant to achieve a lot of things! Do not let your doubts hold you back! Turn your doubts into victories that you deserve. You earned everything you have, baby! And you are always meant for more. Padayon! Laban lang! I got your back! If Ella has millions of fans, I am one of them. If Ella has ten fans, I am one of them. If Ella has only one fan, that is me. If Ella has no fans, that means I am no longer on Earth. (I am still your fan in the afterlife tho!) If the world is against Ella, I am against the world! I love you, Ella! Love, Cy
Hi, lovey! I hope you are doing well right now. This is a reminder of how much you mean to me, baby ko. I may not be by your side physically, but my heart has always been yours. Mahal na mahal kita higit pa sa iniisip mo. Being with you reminds me that life is beautiful. You made everything feel easy. You made me the better version of myself. You made me feel loved and cared for all the time, and I have not felt insecure once since I met you. You are my greatest blessing and my biggest inspiration to be a better person. You may not know it, but you gave me strength when I needed it; you are my constant. Thus, I always thank God for the love He has given me through you. I am so grateful for your existence, baby. No matter how far the distance is; no matter how many days we’ll wait to see each other again; no matter how many people I meet every single day; in any circumstances, in any universe, I will always choose to be with you. My heart has been yours since the very beginning, and it was the most beautiful feeling I have ever felt. I have never felt so connected and seen by someone in my life other than you. I couldn’t ask for more because you have given me more than I deserve, and you have shown me love no one could ever match. Ang sarap mong magmahal at higit sa lahat, ang sarap mong mahalin. Mahal na mahal kita palagi, baby ko! Bawat oras, minuto, at segundo, sayong-sayo ako, buong-buo. When You Need Reassurance Love, Cy 17
When You Feel Like Crying Love, Cy 18 I am here, baby. It is okay to cry, love love. You can always lean on my shoulder, and I will not get tired no matter how long it is. My arms are ready to comfort you. So, come to me, and tell me what made you cry. Sumbong mo sa akin yan, baby. Sometimes the only thing that we can do to lessen the heaviness that we are feeling is to let it out through crying. Crying was never seen as a weakness, but as a sign that you are strong enough to accept your feelings, and that you are facing it bravely. Thus, being vulnerable does not mean you are weak; it only means that you are still alive. You are human. You are here. And whenever you feel that kind of emotion coming in, you have me. Let it out. Shout. Cry. Recharge. Laban ulit! Always remember that better days are ahead. May my love be your quiet strength and support.
When You Feel Lost Love, Cy 19 Life is not a race. Sometimes we tend to lose our sense of direction. Sometimes we do not know what to do. Sometimes we actually feel like we are losing ourselves. But that won’t make you any less. It is part of the process of being the best version of ourselves. It is not easy, and it may or may not be necessary, but at the end of the day, the lessons that we learned are the most important thing. Whenever you are in this situation, think about why you are doing this at first. Who are the people that motivate you to succeed? Think about your dreams. Your dream life, dream country, and your future, because the process may be hard and tearful, but the success that waits for you is well worth it. You are meant to have good things in life, so go out and continue living. Find your purpose, your place, and your people. No rush. Slow burn. It gets better.
GO! GO! GO! YOU CAN DO IT, BABYYY!! KAYANG-KAYA MO YANNNN! MAY MARAMI KANG KISS AND LAMBING SA AKIN AFTER! ANDDD ANONG REWARD ANG GUSTO NG BABY KO NA YAN? GALING GALING NAMAN LAGI! PROUD OF YOU, MAHAL KOOO!! When You Need Something to Hype You Up Love, Cy 20
When You Are Celebrating Love, Cy 21 CONGRATULATIONNNNSSSSSS, LOVEYYYYY! I AM SO, SO PROUD OF YOU, BABY KO. Even the smallest thing that you do is worth celebrating. You are always worth the celebration, baby! You did well, and you deserve all the cheers and happiness right now. Deserve ng maraming kiss and malupitang lambing ko! Deserve din ng maraming food and galaaa. Sana makalabas tayo to celebrate you, my love! AGAIN, CONGRATULATIONS! MAHAL KITA!
When You Think of Me Love, Cy 22 I think of you as well, all the time :)) Why are you thinking of me, love ko? You miss me? Hmm? Lambing na lang kita kung ganon, baby. Masayang-masaya ako kapag kasama kita, kausap kita, nakikita kita—kapag ikaw ang nandiyan. At sa tuwing maiisip mo man ako, isipin mo kung paano mo ako napapasaya dahil iyon ako. Dahil ikaw ang rason kung bakit payapa at tahimik ang buhay ko, kung bakit kailanman ay hindi ako magdududa at palaging iisipin kung ano ang maaaring mangyari bukas. I hope whenever you think of me, you will always be reminded how loved and cared for you are, and that you always have someone to be with; you will never be alone. I wish to be a reminder of how special you are, baby. I am the living proof of your good heart and good character. I am so happy to be with you, and I hope I get to live in different lifetimes with you.
When You Want to Remember Our First Conversation Love, Cy 23 UY SI IDOL! HAHAHAHAHAHAH MAY NAG-CHAT SA IG WOAH Who would have thought that this day would come? Imagine how cold my hands were right at that moment; they were shaking. I have never been so nervous in my life before I did this, but it is definitely worth it. Sobrang kabado ako, but at the same time I am happy. I feel so free now that I have expressed my feelings for you. Sa totoo lang, natatakot ako sa iisipin ng ibang tao na paano nga ba kita nagustuhan eh ilang buwan na after ng graduation natin nangyari? Pero hindi ko talaga masagot eh. Ang alam ko lang, I would definitely regret it if hindi ko sasabihin. Alam ng mga taong nakapalibot sa akin na hindi ako ganyan, kaya alam kong iba ka. Una pa lang, alam ko nang may something sa’yo na gustong-gusto kong malaman at maranasan. Kaya noong nagkaroon ng pagkakataon na sabihin sa’yo, ginawa ko ang bagay na ilang beses kong sinabi sa sarili ko na never kong gagawin sa talambuhay ko. I created that message without the thought of sending it to you. I just wanted to let out what I feel through writing, but then I found myself revising it countless times just to make it look perfect in case you ever read it. As time passed, I saw myself waiting for the right moment to share what I feel. And in the blink of an eye, it happened. I entered your world without knowing that this is the best decision I ever made.
When You Want to Remember Our High School Days Love, Cy 24 We had a very limited interaction before HAHAHAHA! But this one is super iconic now. While practicing for Filipino Day, I developed a little crush on you, but I did not pursue it because I thought you were straight! However, looking at this photo, NAWP! HINDI KA STRAIGHT! I can definitely feel the gay vibe. But I am still thankful that it never happened in high school because of personal issues that could only lead to something we both do not want. I guess God has His plans for us already. He introduced us to each other when we were both capable of loving someone properly without ruining each other, and because of that, I am super thankful that I get to be with this version of you. This is just a random photo I took at our graduation. I didn’t notice that you were right there in front of me. There were signs that we were meant to be with each other this whole time. Aside from this, you also heard countless stories about me that somehow introduced me to you. I guess God just took His time because now, we are happily together.
When You Want to Know My Favorite Memory of Us Love, Cy 25 I love them all. Bawat oras, minuto, at segundo ay paborito ko basta ikaw ang kasama ko. Alam mo yan. Ako ang pinakamasaya tuwing kausap at kasama kita. Kung pwede nga lang ay lagi na lamang tayong magkasama eh. Ikaw ang paborito ko kahit saan, kahit kailan dahil higit na mahalaga sa akin ang presensya mo kaysa sa mga lugar, bagay, o pagkain na ating pinagsaluhan. Ang mga bagay na iyon ay ordinaryo lamang para sa akin, ngunit nang dumating ka ay tuluyan nang nag-iba. Ang simple ay nagiging espesyal dahil biruin mo, kontento na akong maupo sa tabi ng lawa na napapalibutan ng mga bangka at lumot, na kung minsan pa ay may patay na isda dahil kasama kita. Okay lang sa akin na mag-over the fence sa tabi ng kalsada para magkaroon ng kaunting privacy kasama ka. Okay lang sa akin na masermonan ng nanay ko pag-uwi dahil ginabi na. Okay lang sa akin na ma- grounded nang ilang linggo at hindi mapayagang lumabas ng bahay dahil sabi niya ako ay sumobra na. Okay lang lahat basta ikaw. Kailanman ay hindi ko ipagpapalit sa tahimik na pag-welcome ni Mama ang saglit na kaligayahan na makasama ka pa nang mas matagal. Lahat ng iyon ay parte ng pagmamahal ko at ng pagmamahal mo sa akin. Wala akong paborito dahil ikaw ang paborito ko. Saan man tayo dalhin ng gala nating mga paa, alam kong masaya ako dahil kasama kita. Sana sa mga susunod na taon, hindi na lamang tayo sa tabi ng lawa tatambay, kundi sa mga lugar na matagal na nating pinapangarap. Sa iba’t ibang bansa na lagi nating pinagkukuwentuhan at pinapangarap na mapuntahan. Sana hindi na puro local cafes ang ma-try natin, kundi pati na rin ang mga world-class coffee and pastries. Sana magawa natin ang mga paborito mo at paborito ko sa iba’t ibang sulok ng mundo. At sana sa pagdating ng panahon na kaya na natin, sana tayo pa rin ang magkasama. Kasama kitang nangarap, kaya kasama rin kita sa pagtupad ng mga iyon. Mahal na mahal kita. Lagi’t lagi, ikaw ang paborito ko.
When You Miss Our Conversations Love, Cy 26 NEVER ENDING KWEEN LENG LENG MEMES MUNTIK NA AKO MADEDS KATATAWA RITO! LAMBINGAN ANG KWENTUHAN :)) AND MANY MANY MORE!!
When You Think I Am Mad at You Love, Cy 27 I can never be mad at you. Oo, magtatampo, pero magalit o mainis? Hindi ko kaya. Mahalaga sa akin ang nararamdaman mo at alam ko na kapag na-feel mo na galit ako, masasaktan ka. Ayaw ko namang mangyari yon. Ayaw ko ring isipin mo na hindi na kita mahal dahil sa galit ko. Mahirap lang akong suyuin, pero hindi ako galit, ha? Dahil may pakialam pa rin ako sa’yo. Palagi. Palagi kong iniisip ang kapakanan mo sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko dahil mahalaga ka sa akin, kaya kung iniisip mo man na galit ako, hindi ako galit. Ang galit para sa akin ay malaking salita, lalo na kapag nasabi ito sa ibang tao. Maaaring masaktan din ang taong pinagsabihan noon, kaya naman ayaw kong ma-associate ang nararamdaman ko rito. Hinding-hindi ko kayang sabihan ka ng ganoon. Baka tampo lang hehe. Pero suyuin mo lang naman ako at i-baby ay okay na eh. Kukulit na ulit ako. I-kiss mo lang ako nang marami ay okay na. Nagpapalambing lang yan. Salamat. you after hindi ako masuyo agad HAHAHA
Why are we fighting, baby? I apologize if I am making things hard, ha? It is inevitable. It is normal na mag-away dahil magkaiba naman tayo ng feelings and thoughts, pero love pa rin natin ang isa’t isa, ha? Kapag away, away lang. We are going to talk it out. We are going to fix things. We are going to apologize to each other and accept our mistakes. Kung ako ang mali, manghihingi ako ng sorry, at ganon ka rin, vice versa. I hope whenever we fight, we won’t forget that we love each other, that we care for each other. I hope we both know that we are together, and not against each other. When the time comes that we cannot really fix it easily, let’s take a break. Let’s breath and take time to reflect on our actions. Hindi naman sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay kaya nating pag-usapan agad kaya deserve din nating nang kaunting pahinga. Then, we communicate. We open up, share, and admit everything. Then, we decide what to do next. For me, it is really important to communicate and to show you are feeling rather than hiding it. Baby, I do not want your unwanted feeling to pile up. If we have a problem, talk to me. If you cannot talk at the moment, say it and I will do that as well. We may not be perfect, but I know that we both want to be the best version of ourselves. So, let’s be patient. Improve. And love endlessly. When We Are Not Okay Love, Cy 28
When You Want to Listen to Some Music Love, Cy 29 Here is some of the music that I frequently listen to before and after we started talking; some of them were on my ig notes. Hindi pa kita nilalagay sa close friends ko noon, and hindi pa rin tayo mutual sa dump ko. But, you see, all of these songs are meant to make parinig hehe. I really want you to notice me, but at the same time, ayoko. Nahihiya na nga ako minsan sa mga shineshare ko, nirerepost, at ninonote eh dahil hindi naman ako ganoon. Pero look at us now, masasabi ko talaga na it worked HAHAHAHA. So, salamat, Zia! Paos na paos ka na sa akin eh. Pati kay Jao na palagi kong nire-repost sa tiktok! These songs are not just songs; they are my pillars whenever I think about you. These songs remind me of how beautiful it is to be loved by you every single day. Thus, from then on, every love song na nakakakilig will be dedicated to you, baby! Mahal kita!
I always tell my friends how lovely you are, how you made my days so much better. Sometimes I wonder if I really deserve you, but then I realize that you never made me feel that I don’t. You are different. You are the kind of person who can really brighten up my day, and it is not just me; your friends and family also love your presence. You are surrounded by good people who deeply care about you because you clearly deserve it. You deserve the love, care, and admiration that everyone has for you. Loving you is so easy. It just comes naturally because you are worthy of every genuine emotion that we have. You are worthy of the risks, sacrifices, and efforts. You deserve every beautiful thing in the world. I hope that you will see your worth. I hope you won’t doubt yourself anymore. I hope you see the love you continue to share with other people. I hope you see how much we value you. I hope it is clear how special you are to us. Ella, having you in our lives is a blessing. We want to see more of your funny side; we want to know more chika with you; we want to hear more advice from you; we want to experience more adventures; and many, many more. We are so grateful to meet you. You are special. You have always been. You will always be. When You Need a Reminder of How Special You Are Love, Cy 30
When It Is Your Birthday Love, Cy 31 HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BABY KOOOOO! I WISH YOU ALL THE GOOD THINGS IN LIFEEE! MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA! Today, another year has been added to your age. You’re getting old, Ella! But I hope that this year will bring so many blessings and happiness into your life. I pray for more growth and peace. I pray for more adventures and fun experiences with your loved ones. I pray for your happiness as you enjoy being a year older. Sana ma-feel na masaya ka every single day of this year and the next years to come. Today, I hope you enjoy your special day; spend time with the people you love; do everything you want to do; eat everything you want to eat. This day is for you, and I hope you feel special and blessed. For us, I look forward to spending more birthdays with you, my fellow Libra! I look forward to our yearly birthday dates. I am so happy na literal na sabay tayong tumatanda with our birthdays na magkalapit. Every year, we will try to do different things for our day, and sana mag-enjoy lang tayo palagi. As you age, more responsibilities will come, but I know na kayang-kaya mo. Happy Birthday, my Ella! I love you so much!
HAPPY 23 OF THE MONTH, BABYYYY!RD So, today is our monthsary. I still get so kilig whenever naiisip ko na we are girlfriends already. I am so lucky to be called your girlfriend. I am so lucky to spend my life with you. I am so lucky to have you. Mahal na mahal kita! I know na sometimes things are hard between us, especially the distance, but sabi ko nga, no matter how far we are from each other, mahal pa rin kita. Hindi man tayo palaging nagkikita, sana ay palagi pa ring naipaparamdam sa isa’t isa ang pagmamahal natin sa iba’t ibang paraan. Lovey, thank you for another month with you. Thank you for days full of love, happiness, and effort. Thank you for all the things you do for our relationship. Thank you for giving me a peaceful life. Thank you for showing me that love has different forms. Thank you for taking the risk of loving me. And thank you for choosing me every single day. I appreciate you everyday. I appreciate every little thing you do para maipakita na mahal mo ako at importante ako sa’yo. Lahat ng ginagawa mo ay nakikita ko at minamahal ko. Mahal na mahal kita, and I promise to do my best to grow and improve myself to be worthy of your love and kindness. When It Is the 23 of the Monthrd 32 Love, Cy
When You Want to Know Why I Love You Love, Cy 33 There is a trend on TikTok about giving your partners 100 reasons why you love them. Alam mo, the first thought that came to mind was that I couldn’t do that for you. I do not have a hundred reasons, nor a thousand or a million. I ain’t lying kasi yun yung totoo. Not only because I don’t want to, but also because I can’t. Why? Because I do not want to limit my love for you to a hundred or any finite number. My love is greater than that. My love is bigger, so why would I do that? Why would I create a list? However, although I don’t have a hundred, I have one. Ironic, isn’t it? What is that? The only reason is that it’s YOU. For me, time will come na iyong mga reason na nilista nila ay mababawasan because we are human and we change. Na para bang checklist na lang yan na pabawas nang pabawas? And that is not how I see you. I see you today and in the future, and alam kong may magbabago, kaya para sa akin, mamahalin kita dahil ikaw yan. Hindi dahil kaya mo ito. Hindi dahil ginagawa mo ito. Hindi dahil ganito ang itsura mo. Hindi dahil maganda ang pormahan mo. Paano kung hindi ka na ganyan, ‘di ba? At kung iyan ang basehan, kaya rin naman yan ng ibang tao eh. Hindi ba? So, mahal ko na rin sila? Hindi. That is why this is my reason. YOU make every simple thing so special. YOU make my life so much better. YOU make love feel better. And you are doing these just by being YOU. That’s why I only have one reason. I love you today, tomorrow, and forever!
Read Me When Your Heart Needs Mine Love, Cy “I would choose to be with you in every lifetime.”